Every bodies got a story their writing,
today a wall that their climbing,
you can carry the past on your shoulder,
or you can start over.
Regret, no matter what you've gone through,
Jesus, he gave it all to save you,
He carried the cross on his shoulder,
so you can start over.
("Start over" Royal Flush)
So I have been pondering the story that we leave behind us. It is like a trail of bread crumbs through a town, and when the mice follow it they find the source. Our lives are very similar. We go about our life leaving tidbits here and there and those watching us can see what we do. (Facebook is a great example). So many times those the closet to us can see our hearts much better then ourselves. I have many times had a close friend show me somewhere I was reacting to my past or to something I didn't appreciate in my parents.
We need to daily sit down and ask ourselves, so what did I write in my story today? Do I need to do better tomorrow or am I ok with the way it is. For me I look back over each day, at times wondering what I was thinking, other times I know it went as God planned. The point I'm getting to is this. We plan our lives our way, then God plans our lives His way. We many times point out the times our plan and God's plan lined up, even though it was only for a short time. We need to make sure we are aligning our entire lives with God's plan not just the convenient times. We so often think His ways may take us to a place we dont want to go, talk to someone we dont like, or even drop a tradition that we cling to dearly.
Every person has a past a present and some length of future. We can't change our past, we live in the present, but we can't predict the future. Some people are blest to have a past that they aren't ashamed to share. A past that yes they did some things wrong but never really were to bad. At times I think that would be so nice to be able to say that but then I think, would I be as glad of what God has brought me out of if I hadn't really done anything I felt was very wrong? I in no way encourage young people to do wrong. There is the law of reaping and sowing that always applies to the wrong we do. When some things in life don't go as planned it makes you think of your past. That is where my mind has been the last few nights of night duty. Pondering over things that have happened in my past wondering if that affected some actions in my present.
I thank God for the forgiveness and redemption he brings to our lifes when we ask him to. Life is a journey that we are walking, we can make it a example to those following or a example of what not to do to those following. What will you choose to let God make your life?
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Every bodies got a story their writing,
Friday, December 5, 2014
I have been pondering my life of late and just feel like i need to abandon more for God. He has done so much for me that i really should be able to accept or do anything he wants. Some of these thoughts are from a sermon I read today that impressed me.
What does it mean to live with abandon?
Living with abandon means that we are giving our whole life over to the service of Christ. It means that we drop everything that we hold onto and give it over to Jesus for His glory. He might take our friends, family, but if we trust fully in him we will see the end goal. Living with abandon means that we answer His call on our life and we hold our commitment to Him above everything else in our lives. Nothing is held back and everything is surrendered to the person of Jesus. It means that we live each day with the attitude of No reserves, no retreat and no regrets. We will commit our thoughts and each of the things we hold dear, to God for His using, taking, and breaking.
What does it take to live with abandon?
Following Jesus is not for the timid, it is not for the faint of heart. Following Jesus will be the greatest challenge we could ever embrace. Being a disciple means nothing less than giving over your whole life, your whole heart, over to the control of Christ. Living ith abandon means that your all is given to the Lordship of Jesus. The call of Jesus is to live a life that has died to the world. It means living a life that is focused on the things of eternal nature instead of things of earth.
The Apostle Paul is an excellent example of living with abandon. Paul understood what it meant to live a radical life for Christ. Paul gave every part of his life to Christ and His service. He gave his incredible mind, his body, his heart and eventually his life to the cause of Christ. Paul turned the world upside down because he lived an abandoned life. Are we willing to stand out, stand up and make a difference in the world as Paul did? God has far higher goals for us then we know, so as He leads and takes us his way, we can trust that it is within His plans, His journey for our lives. Where would we be without His leading in this crazy world? I pray that you will think about, am I living with abandon for God today?
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Here is a link to a very good news report on ebola https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qj4X0MsQjM
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Fall Is Here, Where Am i?
So the past 3-4 months have been busier than normal and taking 17 credit hours in school and working 2-3 days a week, keeps your wordy spirit in check. There are times when the words have to flow out though, they spill forth in torrents, raining on the poor earth not in need of yet one more blogger...
How am i Affecting those around Me?So this has been on my mind and in the deep crevices of my fractured brain of late. Think for a moment, where are you leading those around you? Do you enrich their lives or do you leave them filling you with no returns?. I believe that God has put gifts and talents and ability on the inside of every one of us. When you develop that You can be used mightily of God. I feel far from being the influence i need to be but time is a grower as well as a healer. And yet we know that "Influence is not about a title or a designation. It's about impact and inspiration. Impact involves getting results, influence is about spreading the passion you have to inspire fellow Christians on the road."
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
I know and knew before i ever voiced my concerns on this subject that there would be haters. I understand everyone has a right to there opinion and free mind, but not everyone has experienced the same things. No you really don't know everything! I don't either. I have hesitated to share anything about this for one it doesn't make you famous and two it can tick off friends... but i keep getting a nagging feeling to share a real life story of what music did, and the out come.
I know there are many genres of music. Some which are good, some to your own discerning, and some very blatantly wrong. This kind is on the verge of wrong and not all wrong. It im sure you all know is Country. It has a good song for every ten wrong so many will still argue that it is fine. It has 6 songs about broken homes, new women, sex and sinful desires out of every ten. It has 3 songs on alcohol, lust and pride also out of every ten... good music? Good morals? I don't want my kids listening to that. They will get the idea that broken homes and x,s and alcohol are the norm. I grew up with that. I don't want them to. I have seen that, i don't want to hear it on the radio all day every day. Maybe you haven't came through a broken home, and drunkards in your family. But do you have to till you see my point? Why do so many Christians think they have to experience it themselves to believe it? Why are so many youth, many who were my friends, skipping God for the "fun" sin and what the world has to offer? Why? I know by now some will have stopped reading simply because they dont agree, others because they know its true, but i still have a burden that they see the side affects this can cause. It is becoming a bigger problem in our conservative churches, and the effects will last for years.
The story that i want to give as an example happened some years ago to one of my good friends. We were best of buds. We lived close to gather and played together often. We aged together (not sure if i can say grew up...). He liked his music i liked mine. I argued with others that his music was fine, as so did he. He loved country, i loved classical and Modern Christian . He was a country boy, i was a town boy. We did many things together, to his liking and to mine. I'd sit and watch people, he'd go talk to them. So i watched him. We both turned more rebellious. He became inseparable from his music. I worried for him, and tried to tell him maybe go alil bit more without it but to no avail. We got older. He became a drinker and smoker. I by God's grace saw my sin and turned to Him. He got involved with women and the world's lures drew him in deeper. It cut me deep, he didn't listen to anything i told him. I realized that by supporting and fighting for things he wanted that were a detriment to his soul, was where i failed him. I was to blame. It was his choice but i too was at fault. So friends i have had this burden on my heart for years. I want to see you in heaven. Please listen a little deeper to the words of the music you listen to. I know the older songs my be good but that is not what they play on the radio now! Its the new hits with the words that leave you empty, wanting to live like they say but yet still not finding fulfillment in life. Its not worth it people, never. Good night.
Monday, March 17, 2014
The ponderings of a soul on night duty...
My mind wonders/wanders wildly to start with then give it a 10 hour night shift for two weeks! Lets just say i have mulled a large amount of data through these feeble brain cells lately. The Future is probably the heaviest on my mind of late...
Back when i signed into come to Hillcrest i had been looking into nursing school, and that was my main reason for coming at first. Then i felt i should just do my 15 months see how it goes, and God will lead from there... Well i loved my job! I loved working with people and even the not so glorious job of making families of residents happy. I felt i found my calling. My life for the next 4 years was planned out in school, perquisites, RN school and then a Bachelors. I could relax and be a floating Christian, the kind that doesn't really need anything, but in reality needs God more than anything! Well i never had got my GED and so in February i had to start on that. I went the first day and came in headfirst to rock (Yeah i hate to say it but its algebra ). I found out that yes it was true that the GED had been made twice as hard and now it was 55% algebra.... So i started to study, and study, math was never hard i just never sat still long enough to learn it. Now i had to. So i went and pretested in science, reading, language, and social studies and passed easily, but behold it was time for night duty! So on i went on. I seem to need more sleep on night duty now so i can never get into class... Then we had a snow storm that closed class for 3 days. Now 2 days from coming off night duty its dumps snow again. Is God telling me something again? What exactly is He wanting for my life in the coming months? I have been having doubts about if He really wants me in nursing school, or is that Satan telling me i can't do it? I have been told that so many times in life i feel i need to break that chain i will and can do it. I know with God anything is possible. Really? Anything? Wow! So if God really does want me to get into school he will make a way, i know He will. He will help me through all the paper work and applying for college, and grants, the intense first 2 months, finding a house, and still working on the side. He can make a way, it just can seem a little impossible right now. And then i leave on mission trip to Vietnam for two weeks in April. So its crunch time. I need to multiply hours and add days between here and there. May is just around the corner and that's when school will start if God so plans that way. So i know God has two really big hands to put our problems in... well mine may be small, but I'm glad the stress is out of my hands for now. Thank you Jesus! So the outcome of night duty? Well even though i have despised and hated it this time, i have found myself again. God still is very good!